i’m not really sure how i’ve been feeling lately. it’s almost like i can’t pin point an exact emotion. im not sad, but i’m definitely not happy. i don’t really care about things, but i’m worried all the time. i guess my anxiety has been better, but really the only thing that helps completely is bud/booze.
but i just don’t want to keep doing what i’ve been doing. what’s the point? the last 3 years of my life since graduating i have done nothing. i’ve amounted to nothing and it’s so sickening. i don’t even have any hobbies like, WHO DOES THAT.
i don’t know. i told myself to stop declaring that i’m going to do things or be a certain way, because i never follow through with my plans.
so i’m declaring that i’m undeclared.
if that makes sense..